-Hєανу Aяє Mу Ɗяєαмѕ-

I had a strange feeling today, just after my late night walk in park and a warm shower, I laid myself in bed with some old movie running on Tv just to get me bored enough to fall asleep. It was between the moment of watching a scene for 50+ time and sleeping that I realized, I was awake and yet asleep.

The feeling was strong, a sort of losing control of my own body while I could just lay there and observe as body slowly eased mind into sleep. It was first time that I noticed such feeling, a rather strong sensation of being ripped of power over your own body, your own actions. Perhaps it was not first time it happened, I am sure it was not, but this was first time I was aware of it and felt the change happen.

Just a moment of realization what was going on happened and already I could feel mind flooded with images that were not my memories, was I sleeping awake? I saw rough mountain tear itself in front of me, cliff that split ground in two and a lush green color before TVs’ sounds pulled me back to reality. Hand reached for remote and I turned off the TV while my rather heavy breathing lips indicated mind and body were just as shocked of what happened. Water was a good solution at that point, a glass I left for myself on the bedside and turned down lights will get me to sleep more properly. Now, I started to toss and turn, thinking on the experience, on this weird aftertaste it left on me and convincing myself I was just imagining it all.

Finally my brain gifted me to stop thinking, perhaps like a calm before the storm till all those visions came back. I remember I could see the cliffs spreading everywhere I looked, they were as tall as my eyes could reach. When my gaze looked down I only realized I was standing in water up to my ankles. Why am I not feeling cold or wet from this water? It crossed my mind, but not for long did I debate on it as already my mind painted even more. It seemed most what Is aw came and went in flashes, colorless shapes that didn't make much of a sense, just like the unfeeling water I tried to walk through.

I tried few times to move or walk, but it seemed like I was tied down on the spot, forced to stay and just watch. It was then my heart raced enough to wake me up again, body straightened up beneath the thin sheets and my eyes instantly looked around only to notice, morning was well under the way. Was I really dreaming this long? 

Torturing myself through a night with a place I have never seen before… 

I must be losing my mind….

Time for a morning cup of coffee to forget about this tortured night.